Author: Sneha Manohar
Things might seem hard right now and nothing may be clear. That is okay. It is okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel tired of everything. That is what I am here for. That is what you are here for. I am here to help you get through whatever troubles you. If I can’t help you, I’ll still be there for you. I want you to know every moment together, whether good or bad, will always be warm for me. I hope the same goes for you too. No matter how far away we are, our memories that we fondly look back upon every now and then are what keep us close. If somewhere along the way you think your hands are empty and there is nothing you can give me, give me your hand and I’ll fill it up with mine.
You don’t always need to be at the giving end, I don’t always need to be at the giving end either. If sometimes you want to be away from me that’s okay too. Just don’t ghost me. Sometimes I’m too much to handle. Sometimes you are too much to handle too. I have already lost count of how many times I have been annoyed by you, same thing other way around I guess. All that aside, I just want you to know I feel bad when you don’t tell me things. I feel like I failed to look like a safe space for you. Like I failed to pop up in your mind when you were in trouble. Then I wonder, what would I do if you were to suddenly leave me? I’d probably feel empty, lonely, and cold. If I were to suddenly leave, you would probably feel the same, wouldn’t you? No one would notice the effects of it at first, but it would surely set in and be clear sooner or later.
That I am not the same without you being a part of my life. That all our happy memories do not bring the same joy as they did before. Just thinking about it is scary. I don’t ever want your warmth to become something so cold and fleeting. Instead, I want you to cherish every moment that we spent and will spend together to the point that no one can come between us, to the point that no one can replace the tiny portion of your heart you have that is meant for me and reserved under my name. If something were to happen to that safe spot, I wouldn’t be able to stand tall and walk with the same confidence again. If my tired soul had no home to return to, where would it go?
Basically, at the end of the day, I want you to remember, that I will stand by you no matter what and it’s not because I know you would do the same for me. It’s because I want to be by your side when anything happens. I want you to always know that I love all of you. Everything that makes you seem like an angel and everything that makes you seem like you aren’t one, I love it all. You don’t need to hide any part of you because I know I don’t need to hide anything about me.
Now for the ones that read this, you can send it to who you thought of when you read this. The person who received this from someone… Smile please!!